well. a friend wrote a song last night. She stands outside, waiting for my headlights sneaking out again are we? well get in my car, we'll drive away from here Caffine's gunna have its work cut out for it tonight so how about you and I? Should we drive all night or stop along the river to watch the sun come up Maybe we should drive to the coast because no one knows our names out there and, I'm not your savior, I just want to see you doing something better because the words that people say will mean nothing someday but you can't blame me for wanting better for wanting better Are you so untouchable? Are you soaring with the angels on wings built of the words they used to say? Not to shoot you down but your sighted in the crosshairs and your better off here with me on the ground i think its beautiful. im so.. depressed now. i dont know. i hope mom will maybe let me take the car and go out to the park if cresten comes home. we need to talk in person not over the phone. ill have to be sincere. tell him about my feelings for pat.. and kyle... and ill have to tell him i love him and dont want to lose him. i dont care. i dont. i really love him. all in all. i put up with shit because. just because. i always have and . ill put up with this. even if it kills me. i know now why mike doesnt leave laura. he loves her. truly loves her. and hell put up with the shit even if it kills him.. just so he can be happy for the few moments hes with her and things are good. oh. i dont know. but i wish i did. cuz then. things might be so much easier.