ok, i wish i could help u, i wish i knew what to say to take away , and the pain, but i know that i can not do that. i love you, and i hate to see u in pain. and i know u may not think it now, but kyle loves u, and hes hurting just as much as u. he only did what he did b/c he loves u. its the same reason that steve broke up with me. and i know, it will take u a while to realize that. it took me a year..... but he does love u, he only did this b/c he was sick of causing u pain and sick of gettin u in trouble and seeing/hearing u and ur mom fight and knowing that he was the cause of it. he wants u to be happy. and he thinks that u deserve better. u deserve to be happy. and he knows that right now, u arent. and he thinks that if u guys arent together then u will be happy..... dont hate him, i know u wont...but hes afraid that u will..... im soo sorry v...i wish i could help..... i love you dear... from jessie. im sick. we're in awkward conversation im faltering everywhere i dont know what to say i used to be like. white fang this really extravagant wolf. never lost my footing. i could woo any guy i wanted really. if i wanted. but i dont kyle is tripping me up right and left. he made me admit i was wrong. thats an accomplishment. shit. hes the only guy to ever really do this to me. i dont know what to say to him i want to bring him back so bad i want him to know how much i yearn to just know hes here he said something about i havent even been 24 hours without him damnit two hours have been enough. i dont know what to do my my is all over the place. are we ok are we still not are you changing the subject cause youre tired of me telling you how much i cant lose you whats going on im so confused. i really. need. you. im getting sick again. ... his mom is so sweet. looking at the pic of him and her on the lake hes so gorgeous and its not just on the outside. i always see it in him just looking at him how extremely handsome he is. but i think of it now. looking at those hands and theyre strong. i love them im scared i might not ever hold them again.