last night after my really bad day i just laid in bed and cried and cried and what not... then i got to a point where i couldnt cry ne more and i just began to wonder... (thats a dangerous thing) cuz i pondered the mysetery of human life... i dont know why but its like i began thinking about what if human life is pointless? and what if it is meaningless? and what if there is no god? and that stuff... then i cried some more and its just weird it i had that feeling of wanting to be surrounded by friends, and then wanting to be so alone.. yeah but i dont know... weird......... after a while i kinda floated into the black abyss and fell asleep i guess... but really i dont know why i get so depressed sometimes... i should probably see a psychologist about it or something.... well uhh off to school or whatever.... bye?