well. all i can say for myself, is that im dissappointed in myself. i love you. you know that. ill come back. oh dont worry. ill be back. i need it to cool i love you anyways. and im out. wandering in this cold cold world for the first time in what seems like a mellinium. and i realize how much its changed. how do you feel? can you come out and say it? do you want me back? or should i just keep on going?... going going gone? cuz i dont want that. but this is you. what do you want. a crunch wrap from taco bell. that is what i want. and to figure this whole big puzzle out. the happy only lasted for a while. it did. i was happy. but i got shot down eventually. heh. like pat said. the crosshairs. those damn crosshairs. and im not so wonderful. im not some.. beautiful, magnificent, rare creature. im a dumb human being. trying to be as down to earth and far in space at the same time as i can get. and it really does tear me up. cuz im covering a huge void. veronica.. youre not making sense... are you stable? well i suppose you could ask that.. but i just answered that in the last entry. so. go read it, lazy. but. hmm. light of my life, where have you gone? summer's two flamed eyes withought the warmth of the sun.. thats a good song. oh.. who can help me now?