well im waiting for cresten to maybe come over... and so ive got the time... im gonna write more about the never ending story... oh yeah i was starting at my new school. well like i had a big northern accent and dressed in hand me downs from my cousins and i didnt know a whole lot about shit. i wasnt "cool" so i guess i got labed a loser, partly cuz i played alone on the playground with toy cars and dirt. i made friends with some of the boys cuz they liked cars too... so i guess thats why i feel more comfortable around guys. but yeah it was bad i used to get made fun of all the time and shit. my first female friend was Emily. she was the first person to say hi to me when i came back here. so we were like best friends. and yeah i guess that was cool ... and things were actually ok for a while. my step dad was cool and got me a horse for my birthday and a go kart and some other expensive crazy stuff. i was into pokemon... but you were a huge fucking loser if you werent... so i made some friends cuz they wanted to trade with me.. lol... ne ways.. so its cool till bout seventh grade right. i get this crush on this guy named Joe. he was like well my first "true love" lol. well i asked him out and i thought we were close, but he turned me down and went out with emily. my best friend. so that shot down my self esteem even more. and then he broke up with her and dated my nasty, manly neighbor, Drew (a girl... i think) so whatever. i dropped the idea of him.. and i made friends with this girl named Jenny.. i was just discovering the wonders of make up and all that yum. so i go from looking ugly as hell to looking decently good. and for once i had guys hitting on me. it was weird. i didnt know what to do. i was scared to make out and shit. i started dating this guy named Corey... and at the same time... my step dad was diagnosed with cancer. ill talk about it later... i wanna call and see if cresten is still coming over. later?