man im so relaxed listening to this stuff. its like cheap elevator music but its so awesome. such a badass piano player. ne ways yea cresten's out to get wasted tonight and im home with mom for the night. so im just gonna chill and try not to get too pissed at the fact that everyone is out havin fun without me this weekend. but bleh. i decided not to let things get to me anymore. im gonna stop judging people. and im gona cool down my temper. and... well i should cut down on my cussing... but at this point im takin it a step at a time. im like tryin to rehablitate myself. its hard. but ill do it. im just gonna lay back and listen to some music and play zelda tonite. no one wants me ne where... sides pat... but all he wants is sex and well... i have a bf and i dont want sex so hes SOL. later. later tonight....... so yeah i played zelda and beat the Goron temple... woot... ne ways yeah my fingers hurt now cuz ive been playin my guitar for like 3 hrs straight. i did this bad (in the awesome way) solo on it.. :P well i think im kinda drunk in my own way. mom went to bed early cuz she has to get up early tomorrow... and i had some jack left over from.... a long time ago... so ive been playin my guitar.. and takin little shots here and there.. and im just buzzing. not drunk. just to make life seem a little better... in all those little ways. lol i made a little shot mug in art today. Road helped me. ill evaluate later.