woo. im outta here. for the week. band camp. hellz yeah. ill try to get on the campus computers and check the net. if not.. im sorry. its a week for me to get away from everyone and everything. especially after last night. it was.. the longest, weirdest night of my life. well. i guess it all started at Stoked. i got there at 6 cuz i was hoping the band would be there early to set up and maybe id be able to spend a little time with cresten. i walk in the door, and there is this ridiculously gorgeous young man sitting in one of the chairs, and he looks ridiculously familiar. his friends keep saying, "wes, blah blah blah".."mater dei, blah blah blah.." and im over there thinking.. not Wes Dingman. not that kid. it cant be... i havent seen him since i was in 8th grade. not since his Freshman year of high school. well. i kinda put it off.. cuz he really does look like Wes.. until.. he walks over to me..(ive been catching his glances ever since i got there..).. and he says.. "ive got one question for you. is your name Veronica?" in utter suprise.. im like... yeah.. "is your number 963-####?" yeah... "holy shit! i knew it! its me, WES!" holy shit. so we spent a long time trying to catch up on stuff. this kid, i almost dated him instead of my ex. i mean.. i regret not dating him instead of my ex. and so well.. were spending a lot of time talking.. and hes running a hard game.. man.. he figured out im single again..technically.. but im kinda putting it off.. but i really cant get away from him.. because by this time, cresten's showed up.. and i want to go over and talk to him... cuz well thats why i came out there.. and so i finally get the chance to.. and he says.. oh no.. thats fine i understand. i feel really bad for not hanging out with him. honestly. i do. but wes wanted to see my car.. and so i took him for a ride in it.. at this cresten completely overreacted and left me a voicemail saying "what the fuck?!" cuz i guess he thought i was leaving with wes? no.. def. not. wes was talking about how his ex dumped him because hes "too perfect" anyways the band started playing but i had to leave cuz it was about 10.. and my curfue is 10:30... so i had to run out real quick and couldnt watch them play, which made me sad and kinda pissed at myself.. but is it bad that i felt really good for seeing wes again.. cuz sadly.. every once in a while id be like..man.. i wonder whatever happened to him.. anyways.. on my way home.. andy called! eeeeaaah! hes leaving for iraq in august, but will be home the week of august 13 so well def. have to hang out. and then.. i just couldnt stay home.. it had been too weird and ironic anyways.. so i left. over to Kyles. durh. cuz i wanted to talk to him, finally. about all this cresten bothrer. and so on my way.. i decided. lets take the interstate for once. and so as im driving down green river.. none other than.. MEGAN.. pulls up next to me and flips out over my car... and the fact im going over to Kyles. cuz.. well.. ill explain. i just had to laugh how ironic that was. so kyle and i got bored cuz dave was smoking pot at the house with his European friends.. and so we went driving all over downtown. and went to the top of the highest parking garage and... spit on passerby. until a security gaurd stopped us.. we went all over though. just roaming the town. it was GRAND! its wat ive always wanted to do, but never got the chance to. but then we went back to the house.. and layed on the floor looking at the ceiling.. and i asked kyle what was on his mind.. and he looked at me and said "i wonder if im getting too attached to you.." and the converstaion deepened from there. and what it seems like.. is i almost got permission from him to go back to cresten. he hates him. but.. i cant help that. i told him not to. and kyle said it didnt matter what he said or did.. hed still really dislike the fact that he hurt me. ever. so. i guess youll have that. but this week is my week off. from everyone and everything. but i just dont know. now all the sudden wes popped back in the picture. i hate when old flames do that. like... paul.. hes popped back recently too. but damn. i dont know what to do. maybe give cresten a second chance.. maybe go for kyle.. wes?... ahhhhh.. thats why im going for this week. to just think about things. and the only person there to bother me about it is paul. but.. hes got neil. and cresten im sorry if this entry pisses you off or makes you sad.. its just what i feel right now,, and what i did.. and how ridiculously ironic everything was last night. but im really sorry i didnt get to hear you play longer. i really did come for you. i miss you. well.. ill call all you crazy kiddos. goodbye till friday.