soooooo.... isnt it lovely and awe-inspiring that parents are the only people that can make you go from euphoric to letmeshootmyselfnow. haha! well ill start off with the good. cuz thats what it started off as. good. really great! well first off. tristan and i finally made our goodwill t shirts. cresten came over and instead of leaving we just haha "hung out" sort of. well we watched tv. but not really. more like eachother. i never really understood the termenology "eat eachothers faces off" until i met him. but anyways. yeah. omg. yeah. hes really infatuated with me id say. hes had all this talk about "someday in the distant near future well get married" and stuff. i dunno. i just smile and laugh. dont get me wrong. i DREAM about that with him. i do. but i learned my lesson with shawn, not to plan too far into the future. and then we left to go get him gas at the moto. we went in and he bought his first cigar. grrr and yay. at the same time. cuz thats when i realized that if im really nice i might be able to get him to buy me cigars too. now haha. youre saying but veronica you make such a big deal about cigaretts? wtf? well ladies. and gents. i grew up on cigars. with the family im from... you just couldnt. its a sign of hell bitches im better than you. watch me sit on my 11,000 dollar leather couch and puff a vanilla tipped cuban. but then he brought me home yay. tomorrow should be fun. but yeah mom came home shortly afterwards and SHE IS A FUCKING BITCHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! exclamation happy. i mean yeah. ok. so i figured out that we have termites right? and im trying to tell her that thats what all those little dead bugs were and that the general location of them should be at this end of the house cuz thats the part that gets all we when it rains and stuff. but bah! im a bitchwhore! so ill yell at you and take it out on you and tell you its your fault somehow! and then ill tell you its late and to go to bed! and then ill tell you that you better fucking separate your clothes next time in the dryer!! and ill tell you youre lazy!!! gaaaahhh! and i might as well then just bite your neck and rip out your windpipe with my bitchy vampire teeth!! raaaah! thats about what its like. i hate it. i hate really hate.. being smarter than her. lol. you say oh youre just a kid you dont know ne thing. no i know a lot. im fucking well read. im booksmart. and im not trying to brag i just am. i have a hard time with the kids at school. i ace things. easily i dont even study. ever. i just do. i retain knowledge like a friggen sponge. i mean.. i know mom has more like "life expeirence" or whatever. but really i know im more book smart than her. i just i dunno. i guess. *sigh* its just cuz im in a cocky i know a lot mood. but yeah. so josh's tomorrow. i wont be in my right mind. at all. all night. so yay for me. really. fuck mom and her bad moods. im sry mom, and i know it seems like everything is happening to you right now. but really. just let it go, kick back, relax. drink a friggen yahoo and throw in a reggae cd. i mean. thats what you have to do sometimes. i fell asleep outside earlier, cuz i was in such a bad mood all last week it was messing with my karma. i had to get back to nature again. so i just layed down in the grass for a spell. and it does wonders for your soul. really.