since ive last written in this, kyle and i have broken up, gotten back together, ive gone to colorado and chicago, helped make and play in a band, played two shows, recorded a 5 song demo, wrote songs, discovered i could sing, experienced the break-up of that band, gotten an apartment, gotten four kittens, three fish, and a newt, have painted more paintings in the last week than i have in my life, recieved money, spent it, gotten an interview for a job, had a two year "first kiss" anniversary with Kyle, cancelled a housing contract with USI, made a new best female friend (Cate), and out of that deal two very close loveable friends (Cate and her fiance, Brian), made countless more friends through the band, made t shirts, lost three more friends, gone celibate, had sex, buried a goldfish, taken weekend trips to Louisville and Nashville, picked up a new hobby (fishing), bought a pair of Burberry sunglasses, and had pheasant at one of the most expensive restaurants in town. so. a lot has happened in.... four months. and you know i only regret one thing. the break-up of the band. but ive come to realize you cant make people do something they dont want to do. and that ive got an out of control temper. but all in all... it was ok. life gets crazy. and its ok. i get crazy... its not always ok. idk... im nervous about starting a new chapter in my life. and im nervous about losing the band. im nervous about kyle and i... i want us to continue working so well... im nervous about my mom... ill miss her... ill cry... sorry for being a little kid. its a big deal.. college... yeah... i guess.... im just scared... and nostalgic.