heres a new one for you guys. anywho. im really burnt. maybe this "grounding" thing isnt so bad. ive been able to catch up on a lot. especially with my drawing. and since im allowed to go to the school for art classes around 11... i do. and hang with Melissa and Mike Frey. Hes such a badass. I duno.. they usually leave around 1 or 2 but Frey said if i wanted somewhere to go for a while.. hed pick me up in the mornings so i could go back to his place til 4 or so. ill just tell mom and chris im at art.. and then i can hang out with the kiddos for a while. well not really. cuz the Bradys and the Band are on their way to Cali here in like a week. oh well. what disappoints me the most is that cresten never calls. man. i hate having to call him all the time. dont guys get it that a girl wants them to call her sometimes?! he used to call all the time and now i have to call him like seven times just for him to call me back ... maybe. oh well. cant blame him. hes so busy all the time bein so popular. or hangin out with alex. or practicing with the band. and soon he gets a job and then hell be even busier. *shrug* i cant ya know... get aggravated with it.. so.. oh well. i mean.. looking back at it.. i sure do complain an awful lot about him in this thing. but hes not that bad. i dunno. are all guys like this? he sure is a hell of a lot better than shawn ever was. but i mean. i dunno. everyone talks. "oh you and cresten will get married someday and have the cutest kids.. oh god you guys are the cutest couple... youll be together forever!" ... do i want that? i mean... i love him to death and i want a serious relationship.. none of that.. one night stand stuff.. but... forever? never be with another guy? never... test out the world? i dunno. maybe its a phase. but.. the more i think about it... i dunno. see this is why i like talking to him in person so much. cuz its easier than on the phone. i can read him.. his expressions.. his voice.. he can read me. i can see how he reacts. and know when to stop or keep going. i dunno. whatever im rambling on again. anywho. ill see him tonight.. hopefully. sometimes he forgets.