the truth is... i cant sing. worth shit. i thought hey i can kinda sing. i might be good. im kinda good at singing in the shower and while im cleaning my room. fuck that. i tried out for the musical tonight and well lets say im a hell of a lot better actor than i am a singer. i was so good last year in the PLAY. and today when i went and read the part.... they loved it. but after i sang.. heh... (which sucked horribly) i know im not gonna get one of the leads. i wish we'd just do a play not a fucking musical. whatever. thats why im in band.. not chior. thats why i play guitar and piano and sax and don't sing lead vocals in a band. which sadly is one of my dreams. but that will forever only be a DREAM. They were however supirised when i used the word harlot instead of prostitute or whore like everyone else. yay. i have a fucking large vocabulary. thats a plus *rolls eyes* so my hopes and dreams are crushed and i have a huge azz chem. assignment to do still. whatever. i dont care. i hope craig has a party on sat. cuz i just wanna get real drunk right now and wallow in pity and watch the band. sides... i think Kyle is gonna come if cresten and i go to the party... and we know how the boyfriend with his friends thing works out... so chances are... all im going to be able to do is talk to lindsay, keegan, or dan and drink. Tristan said he's gonna wear a man thong and give me a lap dance at my birthday party that craigs throwin for me. Allison said shed do the same.. but with clothes on. *sigh* im usually not so depressive... i dunno.. i just.. bleh. i love acting. i love it. more than my guitar... my piano... i dont know... i love the arts. i finished my lizzard today in art. thats about all i care to write... and no one reads this... no one comments unless its stupid. soooooo... ill write my random quote and be gone. "... curiously enough the only thing the bowl of petunias thought as it fell was, 'oh no, not again'..." excerpt from The Hitchicker's Guide to the Galaxy (**im here to promote the movie coming out in may! GO SEE IT!! ITS GREAT!!**)