ok... i get upset wayyy too easily sometimes. i dont wanna go to school... i dont wanna take my vocab test. i want to have my way with Cresten right now........ wait.. uhh.. lol... ne ways... yeah i think i was upset last night cuz all day ive been thinking about that kid at Forest Park that committed suicide. (Forest Park is like one of our friendly rival bands... so were kinda close to each other on terms of a friendship thing) He was a band member... (the freaky thing was, i knew he was a band member before ne one even told me that... i dont know how but i think i just figured he was..) and like its just kinda weird, cuz the band (marching band... thought id clarify that) is like a family... i remember when Josh died in ours... it was crazy and we still cry about it... that kid though... he shot himself in the bathroom at school... it makes me wonder about all those times i wanted to commit suicide... and what was he thinking that moment before he pulled the trigger? what was his last thought in that breif moment before death? would he have done it if he felt someone in a different school who dosent know his name, hes never even met before... loved him? *sigh* it hurts me to see this kind of thing