so. mom has a date today. thats cool you know what i dont like. it hurts. last night. before kyle was going to take me home. josh came up said he needed to vent. something about his gf seeing her ex tonight well thats not so bad josh. as long as she wasnt cheating on you with him. he said something about lindsay and i said i hear shes a cheating bitch. and he said... "well arent you a cheating bitch too?" "ive heard stories." in all seriousness. ..... ouch...... i wish i could clarify to everyone. i really do. i cant just walk up and be like. HEY I NEVER CHEATED ON KYLE! .... but i didnt. i liked someone else. thats all. damnit. this hurts so bad. i just liked somebody else. its blown so far out of proportion. yeah we exchanged a few text messages. but. damnit. i never fucked him. i never kissed him. i never did any of that. i just wish i could tell the world. im so upset. im just going to go to church. i was pretty upset about it the whole car ride home. i love kyle. i really do. i wish... people wernt such bitches sometimes. i think that was really out of line for josh to say to me. maybe it wasnt. but damn. im so sorry for what happened and how much i hurt kyle. i really am. and i cant get over it. apparently there are stories going around about how i pretty much fucked another guy and im such a slut? ..... i want to die. really.