lyrics on demand takes forever and a year to load. I DEMAND better service. well first off. i think PORNO is fucking GROSS. i mean.... dont you have a girlfriend? ... (the person who thats intended for knows who they are.) well went over to cresten's today. he wasnt home at first. but his mom, Kelly, was. and well so was Jared. woot. but kelly likes to give me this 'dont be stupid like me and stick with a fucking loser. youre only gonna hurt yourself' speech. i love her to death. but... i mean were talking.. im dating her son. shes trying to get me to break up with him. fuck that. itll only make things worse on his part. i know it, he knows it.. how come she doesnt? i dont care. im gonna make my own damn choices until you fucking people get to see that i wont be hindered by your blatantly foreward suggestions.... I went down to the bank To get me a'pay I'm gonna get me outta here I got me some cash I'm heading back to LA I'm gonna get me outta here I'm sacking the man cause the man is a thief I'm kicking the plan before the plan kicks me I'm gonna get me Get me out of here I'm gonna get me Get me out of here I went down to the Duke 10 time a day I'm gonna get me outta here Drink all night and talking shit all day I'm gonna get me outta here I don't mind how I live my life Without the luck you got I ain't tryin' to keep in time So just keep off my ride You won't hang your rusty sign on me ..... yeah so ne ways. bottom line people. i love cresten. so what if hes a loser. so what hes got some damn problems. so do i. ill tell you some. i fucking drink when i want to get drunk. its what i do. you wont stop me. sometimes i do stupid shit. i fuck up. i lie. a lot sometimes. to cover a lot of shit up. i hide myself from what i am. people build me up to be something im not. i do smoke cigaretts sometimes. i cheated on shawn more times than i can count. ive done a whole bunch of stupid stuff. ive flashed people before. lol. i sometimes use sunless tanner. woot. big fucking deal. i get severe depression sometimes to where im so nervous and upset i puke all the time and dont eat. sometimes i get depressed and angry and hit myself. i tell you the brusies come from falling down and shit. i con my mom out of money for stuff all the time. im a bitch and i make fun of some of my best friends behind their backs sometimes.. but i always feel like crap afterwards. i do stupid shit. im a horrible person too. you just dont know it, cuz i know how to hide it. durh. ive got actor blood flowing though me. its all easy for me to do. i dont lie but i dont always tell the whole truth either. one thing i dont do though is lie.... to cresten. im completely truthful with him through everything. he asks and i tell. sometimes he doesnt even have to ask. one thing i cant understand is why he has/ had to lie to me about stupid shit. whatever. i got to get to work. young artist. mothers day is coming up and i got to... MUST get to work on that drawing. i know itll make her so happy if i only can get it. damnit! ill do it. my tooth hurts.