Gosh its hot here, the temperature has been 30'C (96'F or something)here over the past few days, its England!! we don't get weather this hot & so we are all melting under the heatwave, its quite cool for getting a suntan if u can stand being in the sun for long enough which at the moment i can't. Thank Goodness shops have air conditioning!!(not that i work in one) but my friends work doesn't have, :( poor her, so i've sent her a mini desk fan, isn't that great :D cos we don't want her to melt there. I sent it anonomously cos its fun doing that, and anyway its the thought & surprise that counts not who its from, though i think she'll have a pretty good idea that its me, hehe. I'm very very bored but its too hot to try and do anything really so i will stay bored. O i haven't wrote for a couple of days so i haven't said about what happened sunday. I've been really struggling to get over Chris & i wasn't really succeeding & sunday morning at church the preacher was talking about being trapped by things and God releasing us, i thought about it & during the evening service (i was playing the music in both) i was thinking about things to do with chris & i prayed, as i have been doing, then when i was at home i felt really peaceful and calm inside & i couldn't think about Chris & i had no feelings for him. It was really great, i could look at, listen to things without thinking of chris & getting pangs of sorrow cos i missed him & loved him & wanted him. Its been so good to live my life again, plus he's gone off on holiday to Ibiza for i don't know, don't care how long, yay! God is good!