*rolls eyes* ptch even though i havent seen chris all day he's been playing on my mind such a lot, of all my friends who were on the trip today why does it have to be only chris i miss??!? I don't want to miss him, i dont want to care about him, i want to be able to let go of him totally & forever. I guess though part of me wants to still hang onto what happened & to him & hope that something will happen but it isn't & i need to get over that, my head knows that but my heart won't listen, its not fair. I need something else to get me off him, but it'd be a heck of a lot easier if he'd done something i could hate him for, if we'd gone out & it hadnt worked, but no, he's still a really friendly guy & makes me smile & we never tried a relationship! I hate this bugging feeling, i dont like moaning about this to anyone, but i guess this is my diary & you dont have to read it if you dont want to. I'm really drifting off to sleep today, can hardly keep my eyes open.