I want him, no i dont, i do, no, i want to be loved, but he cant do that properly & not to me, i want closeness, but trust & honesty too, i dont want to be hurt, but its a risk that comes with love. I wanna forget him, leave him, be an independant woman, was doing so well, but get these urges every so often, must fight back, No urges. Need sleep. Love will come when its right, God will find me the right guy in time. Must sleep, must stop thinking, must stop wanting, stop waiting, must let go.