I'm useless, I'm rubbish, I'm no good, I do nothing right. still with craig, but i keep making a mess of things & have no self control. just feel its best i start keeping things to myself and protecting other people from me. kinda given up on God too, cos he doesnt care about me, spent months trying to do things right &asking him for his help and its come to nothing, whenever i try and do something right it just ends up 10 times wronger. Bet my dad has disowned me now, watching me from heaven and seeing me doing everything wrong and hurting everyone including myself. doesnt bear imagining what he thinks of me. if i could sink into a hole and never have to face anything again then i would, but there seems to be a shortage of holes and i can't be bothered to go and physically dig one. right thats the extent of what i'm letting out about my feelings.