had a fucking crap day, well it wasnt that bad but i just feel that way about it now. I spent the morning with chris after his exam cos he'd text me last night asking if we could spend some time together. we messed around again, but not so much cos i wasnt in the mood & was fully aware of how cautious i had to be about certain things. i tried asking him whether he was being serious when he said he likes/loves me, but he didnt know what i was talking about & i wasnt gonna spell it out, so i'm just pissed off cos i dont know where i stand, what i want/feel, what he wants/feels. i get the feeling he is pretty serious about me, but without him talking to me in person i wont know for sure, and a huge problem i still have is that he's still going out with kerry, in some ways whether he's serious or not is irrelevant until he sorts out the situation with kerry cos i am so cautious with my feelings & reactions while his is cos i dont want to be getting into trouble over it. *sigh* i just hope this gets sorted out soon cos i'm not sure how much more i can cope with, especially as the number of people i can talk to about it is decreasing. Plus on top of that i have my suicidal friends & my friend who is dilluded/falling, so i'm a total wreck at the mo.