Can't wait to get away now, got a text from chris out of the blue earlier suggesting that we 're-enact the last summer day sometime' & i thought o fuck u, i haven't replied and am ignoring him, even though he's text me since pleading me to reply or come online to talk to him, yeah he's online still but he's blocked so he doesn't know i'm here, he's fucked up 2003 enough for me, i don't need him fucking up 2004 before it even starts & neither me, becky or charlie know what he's playing at cos he keeps saying that he doesn't fancy me, so what the fuck? which is why i'm ignoring him cos he's just playing me around & i ain't no slag that he can use. He's just emailed me, hang on while i see what it says... "hiya, it seems ur ignorin my texts, may i kindly ask why? all i asked was if u wud like to repeat that fantastic summer's day! we could even strike deals, u get one thing u wud like, i get another? im sure it would be a very intresting event! ofcourse there would have be to be full co-operation from both parities, unlike at some times, last time! everything im sure would run smoothly, how about doing it this holiday! im ready and waiting girl, and im sure there could be some intrestin convo aswell, when some secrtets may well come out! secrects never heard before! but u won't find then out unless u participate, and get back in touch on my mobile! luv chirs xXx " The fucking bastard!! Obviously he does take me to be some kind of slut, fuck him, i definatly aint replying to that, o how grateful i am that i'm going on holiday tomorrow! I'm fed up of keeping last time a secret from him so why should i do it again? And what does he mean that i get what i want & he gets what he wants?!? he doesn't even know what i want, not him, i want a decent stable relationship, i really don't trust him anymore & certainly not alone with him.