why does love have to hurt so much?? i was lying on my bed earlier thinking, thinking about tom alot, and i miss him, i wanna hold him & kiss him, but i dont think i can handle a relationship. he wont even let me hug him these days tho, not even as friends, we were best friends before but now...he stays away, and that hurts, he says not to hug each other cos "thats how we got close last time" mmm its a risk, especially as i wanna physically be with him, but i dunno if i can bear loosing a friendship too. stupid thing is, i've got no one to talk to about it, cos if charlies still alive she wont wanna talk to me about it. I want a hug, i want everything to be better, y'know, how when you were little & cried about falling over, but when you were hugged everything was made better & you were happy to run off and play again. But nobodys gonna make things better for me, its not going to get better, i just may manage to hide it deep inside, thats the way adults deal with things, "make things better", isnt it