some days i wish i wasnt such an emotional person and didnt have so many feelings towards people. i really wanted to see tom & i was gonna go & see him after swimming midday today, only when i text him he had his phone off & i wasnt gonna hang around waiting just in case & i wasnt gonna go up to his house & knock on the door cos i dont want to face his dad (i'm not sure how his parents feel about me thesedays after my supposed using of tom) so i just walked home. he eventually got the message but he's not bothered to contact me in reply so in some ways stuff him, but its bugging me a bit. it seems typical tho for a lad, to not contact me unless its in their interests, or maybe even just people in general.