i love leon, he's been absolutely great, hes such a nice guy, its such a pity that he's gay, but he says if we're both still single at 30 we'll marry each other, awww bless him, such a sweetie. such a dodgy day today, i was sitting on charlie's lap & holding her hand as we often do just messing around, thing is i was leaning close to her & i just felt like kissing her, i didnt i would regret it so i controlled myself, i dunno why i felt like that, its not the first time but i dont think i fancy her, its just being close to someone & maybe her earlier talking of being so close to getting off with andy *shrugs* i'm not gay, i fancy guys, but maybe theres a slightness of bi or maybe i just want to be loved & the only people who do that are my friends who happen to be female. cos in general i felt that way as earlier i'd been thinking about leon in that way & i've never even met the guy plus i know he's gay.