*sighs* havent been on here in a while & i dunno where to start. I went away on practice expedition over the weekend so i'm sore and knackered now, it was a good experience though. One thing i learnt was, dont climb over barbed wire fences in new trousers!! I now have a rip in mine, it was cos we got lost and instead of turning back we carried on regardless of the fence!!! I'm in neutral gear towards a lot of things at the moment, things like chris, lads in general, whats going on in Becky's life, schoolwork, i just dont have the energy to be bothered, its like 'what the hell? who the hell cares??' i suppose in a way thats good cos then none of this stuff is stressing me out like it might do, especially with chris, cos i dont know how long its been now but i still havent had that letter, although he said he wrote some of it over the easter holiday, but i can honestly say that at this moment i really couldnt care less!! And surprisingly having not been to GB for 4ish weeks i dont miss it or the people, even my friends which is unusual, but thats just how i am at the moment!