today has been such an emotional day, and i feel really crap now. I was stressed and nervous because of the YE final presentation anyway and then during our practicing time chris was making comments at me about my company, he was really doing my head in, i lost it with his final comment, me, claire and him had been talking about the presentation & how we couldnt be bothered to go really but had to and he goes 'well i dont know how your lot even got this far' and i just turned to him & goes 'just dont start!' and walked out of the room, when i got into the corridor i just felt like crying & got really pissed off with him. During the presentation i was drawing 'boys are bad' pics in full view, i dunno how much chris could see from where he was sat, i was also typing a text to him which i didnt actually send, basically saying how i didnt need all the crap he'd been giving me, especially as he still hasnt sorted out this talky thing. I dunno whether he read that or not, or whether claire talked to him, cos i'd mentioned to her that i he was pissing me off, or that he'd noticed i was avoiding eye contact with him. anyways, drunken monkey won & i'm happy for them & i was walking into town with becky when the rest of them, including chris caught up with us, they went into subway but chris walked to his bus stop with us & he was talking about things, & i was amazed that he actually managed to hold a proper conversation with me/us without rubbing in the fact that they'd won & my company hadnt, i dunno why the change of attitude which is why i wonder if he saw something or talked to claire. Naomi has been a good counsellor tonight, i dunno how well her suggestion would work tho of getting things out in the open with him, like how much things he does messes me around, and so to get things sorted so that i can either forget about him or have a decent friendship with him. Maybe one day God will get his act together & sort things out properly so that all this can be behind me. He seems to have decided to ignore this problem of mine for the past year!!