am so fed up! so want someone to talk to, but becky wasnt at GB & caz was busy with the fireworks & hot dogs & arranging saturday & paul was there, so had no one to talk to :( got a phonecall off chris asking me something & i was gonna text tom, but i dont feel like it, i feel strange about being with him now. there was question earlier about whether i still like chris & then i was told that i'd been eyeing him up on the bus, i dont know. i like being with tom & messing around with him, but i dont think i love him, i dont think i'm right with him, but it'd kill him if i broke up with him now & we'd get stick for it not lasting very long again, maybe i need to keep it up for a while & see how i'm feeling in a few weeks time. i just wanna disappear off to uni, or anywhere, away from everything here, especially as i have no one i can fully confide in. plus theres everything with charlie...whats the point of anything anymore?