well after writing those poems i felt strangely creative & couldnt get to sleep but managed somehow. It was good that on the first day back at school i didnt have to be in until lunch time, i infact got in at the end of break, got my lunch and did some work, then at lunch i waited to see if chris would come & talk to me, but no he went and played footie, just where i could see him out of the window, so i ended up calling him a tosser & bastard, lol. It was quite funny watching them play footie, cos stanier was wearing his blazin' squad coat the whole time, even tho the rest of them were in t-shirts!! Then they kicked the ball into the allotments behind which have a spikey fence around them & are a dump, they did get it back somehow. I got stacy to tell chris in sociology that i was pissed off with him & that if he wants to talk to me then he needs to make the effort to find me! so i then got a text during psychology after footie practice with him apologising & saying he'd forgotten. I'm too bloody nice to that guy & its not cos i fancy him, i dont, i should hate him, well thats what society would say, after everything that he's done & the amount i got messed up, but no i forgive him, move on, and now end up having a private chat with him & probably end up advising/sorting his love life out! Depends how it goes tomorrow :s 'You can be too nice for your own good, but maybe thats better than having enemies' O well i guess it says in the Bible to love your neighbours, and chris is my neighbour & whatever he's done God still loves him, so why shouldnt i be there for him too? he probably doesnt deserve it, but never mind.