just updating cos i'm bored & got 5mins to kill before going to watch tv. well...me & tom split up monday & things are awkward/tense between us to say the least, tis hard going back to just being friends, and yeah i know its gonna take time for everything to sort itself out. Fortunately we are still friends, and i've been getting on ok wiht chris still too, its good having them both as mates. but wanna be able to talk to Tom without feeling so uneasy round him, just hope its not gonna take 2years to become proper friends with him like it did with chris. Have been very stressed today, Tom was all stressy and did seem to take it out on me which upset me. but then i had a phonecall mid afternoon to rescue charlie from the toilets and bring her antiseptic wipes and plasters cos she'd cut herself (delibrately as in self harm) and i didnt see the cut but just being around her at the time freaked me. i've had enough of all the suicide and self harm, why cant ppl be cheerful, or at least accept that life goes on regardless and get on with it like the rest of us, and attempt to change what we can. i cant even talk to anyone about todays events cos charlies told me not to, damit, its all so fucking screwed.