am attempting to type this between having to turn my screen off & on cos the videocard is screwed!!! ah can type without seeing. today i've felt so emotionally screwed up, i'm really not sure how to feel towards tom after yesterday, i know that was a one off & i've got to just be friends with him. i then had charlie this afternoon telling me that tom had said we'd been flirting yesterday and warning me to be careful, apparently tom & stacy had been talking about me in history, and charlie just doesnt want me getting hurt & so not to get myself involved when its not going to be a relationship, dont think she knows about the issing. i broke down in tears, its just typical that when i think maybe everything is going to be alright, i find that maybe i cant trust people not to misuse me. and cos of the type of person i am, i forgive them & i'm kind to them & remain friends, even if theyre totally screwed me up emotionally!! i suck!!