am talking to becky, tis good, she understands how much i'm hurting cos of the tom situation, she knows it'll take time & she knows i've got the brains & experience to make my own decisions about chris, which is better than what others have said. i've cried alot already today, cos i'm hurting so much. shite found becky's sitdiary, after all my random searches that i do it was the 2nd name i clicked on on the active users list & i hit it, but i really daren't read it, i dont think i want to know what it says now