:( dont seem to have anybody to be with, my friendships seem to have gone pear shaped since leaving school, especially with charlie. it seems that i cant do anything right by her and its bugging me, cos i feel like a crap friend anyway not being particuarly sociable outside of school. i find it so hard arranging to meet up with ppl and finding stuff to do, its a big issue now. my sister is outside round the corner with one of her male mates, innocent or not i dont know, but i've never been able to do that, am not brave enough. makes me feel unloved, especially today when i've not had a very good day on the tom front, saw him & was around him but didnt really speak to him, mainly cos charlie was around & i got the feeling he didnt want to know me. Randomness, PJ has started talking to me on msn, he never talks to me, not sure he even knows who i am!!! nobody else has spoken to me, not even chris who was on earlier! (with his personal message being "you just gotta get your head up, and look forward, and forget the past" whoever that is aimed at!!)