Hmm :/ ok its not bugging me as such but when i think about it it kinda amuses me/makes me wonder, its odd, as i said yesterday about the whole bus stop incident with chris, well today i was waiting with charlie for her bro, i didnt see chris coming but charlie did & spoke to him & he ended up getting the bus with us & sitting by us & he was pulling faces at charlie, her & him were messing around (i'm winding her up saying they were flirting lol)& i was kinda part of it, but also trying to avoid it incase of feeling anything, but i know he kept looking at me, & some of the time when he was pulling faces he kept looking to see what my reaction was, its dead odd. I was talking to him a bit, but mainly i was talking to charlie about him while he was in hearing distance & that was to take the mick out of him & stuff, i know it sounds mean, but i'm finding it a lot easier to take the piss out of him rather than be nice to/about him, cos if i'm nice i'm likely to fall into the trap of liking him again & anyway i have more fun taking the piss cos then at least other people agree with me & he takes the piss too, so i guess its best all round. I'm just in a totally funny mood today, its kinda i dont care about other people but its not, its just that i laugh about things, i'll laugh about my life too, i know i'm strange! hey have come to take your life On through the dead of night With the four Horsemen ride or choose your fate and die says: so how u feel bout chris now then Life is too short to love. I wonder how people have time to hate says: *shrugs* i dunno, its weird cos even though i've hardly bin in skool he's still managed 2 be around when i am after skool. at the mo its just easier 2 take the piss out of him & avoid him, he takes the piss back & its more fun that way than bein normal nice 2 him cos i dont wanna fall back in2 likin him again. i just take each day as it comes, if he's around i deal with any feelings i have by either avoiding him or pretend 2 be being mean, *shrugs*