Fuck you diary, even you hate me, deleting my entry. I want to cut, or commit suicide and let out the pain so i dont have to live anymore. people are believing the rumours, i dont even know what half of them are, except theyre about me. nobody cares, or believes the truth, they all think i'm fucking lying. stacy is still screwing up becky & chris' relationship, yet whilst tom was talking to me online, more than before, he insists that stacy's not a stirrer, but we know she's been lying! I dont know who i can trust anymore, especially as becky says to be wary of what i tell charlie, yet i'm spending a whole week on holiday with charlie, it sucks. I dont want to live anymore, i cant cope, i couldnt cope on my own, and now i have to be on my own, and i cant cope! I know what a mess cutting leaves people in & it wouldnt do my future any good, but what other option do i have? i cant talk to anyone cos theres no one to trust, and nobody cares or believes me anyway