hmm well i havent had the letter and i've no idea when i'm getting it either cos he doesnt know himself, theres also something he wants to talk to me about, it sounds like its really really complicated situation, i really cant imagine what it must be about for it to get to him so much & for him to be like he is with it, its slightly scary. I dunno how i feel towards him at the moment, but i was being a bit off and snappy with him today, not really the best thing in the current situation i guess but never mind. The current questioning going round in my head at the moment is, why me? why is it me he's wanting to tell all this stuff to? why is he trusting me? why not tell one of his closer friends(and theres quite alot of them who are closer than me)? why me? i dont know the answer & nor does charlie. After all the arguments, distrust & other stuff why is it me he's turning to for help? and even tho i've said i'll help him i've still been a bit suspicious of some of the things he's said in texts & even tho i've been questioning his motives alot he still wants to talk to me, its really strange & i really dont see why its me he wants to help him. He usually talks to Claire & she's a better mate to him than i've ever been.