Its 9:30pm, i have been awake since 5:30am & up since 6am, so thats 16 hours!!! I had to get up so early to collect the roses & get them to school for 8, i've been sorting them all day, wrapping, sorting, & delivering, its been so hectic, esp as i was helping the other group too.(Valentine's sucks, i've never had a serious pressie in my life & lust/luv sucks too, cos all you do is just get hurt!) Then when i finally got home from school i had to do my paper round & literally go out again. I'm so knackered & so i really wasnt in the best of companiable moods at GB, i tend to take things way too personnally when i'm tired & it being one of those evenings, by the end of it i just wanted to be able to talk to caz, or at the very least a hug which would make me feel a bit better, but sod's law, those nights when i need her, they're the nights when she can't give me a lift home! So i just feel numb to it all, i was feeling pretty good earlier, cos i'd spent the day working with & around Chris & we'd been getting on so well & at ease around each other which we havent been since before & he smiled at me & it was just so great to be around him & not feel uncomfortable or any emotion towards him, just to be able to treat him like one of the other lads, or at most a friend. Its such a good job that we're getting tomorrow off school as part of half term, i so badly need my sleep, then to do my homework, so that i have the remaining bit of the holiday for relaxing and doing craft stuff & things i enjoy. Also i wont see chris, so maybe i'll relax, but i wont see caz either & that may get me a little agitated, i dunno, we'll see, i can cope without her, its just nicer to talk to her.