"everything happens 4 a reason, mayb u'll discover th reason in ur life time, mayb not. He hasn't deserted u, he's still there. "I know God doesn't give me anymore than I can handle. I just wish he didn't have so much faith in me."" thats what bex said when i was uncertain about whether God exists and if he does why does so much crap happen and why does God leave me to try and cope with my feelings for Chris on my own instead of helping me? (yeah i've had a bad day with facing Chris, i manage to sit through being around him just about these days and i refuse to let myself cry, about him or anything)