i'm in a bit of a funny mood tonight, its been a challenging day for me & my friends. for charlie it was the anniversary of her uncle's suicide death and she wasnt coping very well & we had a big row, but eventually sorted it. she went home later in the afternoon - not cos of that, but no offense to her i was glad about that. i had a good conversation with kate about general things, then got the same bus as chris, altho he was with ben & someone, but they got off before our stop, so we walked together for a bit and actually managed a conversation, it was the first time we'd had a conversation alone for i dont know how long, it was a bit uneasy but its a first step and one that brings hope. Even if it does make me feel slightly weird now, but that may not be helped by the sugarcult song - pretty girl, which people think is appropiate for the situation between me & chris & i did too when i first heard it, its scarily accurate! But we'll see how things go, it could get worse, or it could get better, i dont know.