hmm it got to be a very intresting conversation with chris the other day, made me feel good in some ways but doubtful in others cos it wont ever happen. and i was given extra doubts about his truthfulness by other people & its frustrating. i havent seen him since monday & that seems like 2 weeks ago not 5 days, but its been 3 days since that conv & theres so many questions & complications in everything. Doesnt help that im so exhausted & feel pretty crap too.