Exhausted by Girls' Brigade training weekend, I am really worried about doing the Advanced Level cos its so hard & so different to the previous levels & i've got to work on my own this time cos Becky's not doing it. And all the child protection crap has got me worked up, ok i can understand why we need it but some of it goes OTT, and at the end of the day its the children that suffer cos they can't be hugged, and those that abuse children aren't gonna take any notice of the law, it just means innocent people get put through hell when they're wrongly accused. I have to stop talking to charlie about this cos she's getting upset that i'm so depressed about it all, so even though she's my best mate i may have to pretend i'm ok to her. Good stuff though, Becky & me actually had a proper conversation earlier so there may be some hope for us, not that i'm that bothered about it any more cos i've got on with my life, but i don't like enemies so it would be better. I got my new tops yesterday; a hoodie with an angel sheep & 'chill out' and a layered t-shirt with an angel & 'ickle angel', yay!! And Erin & Grace got the bus this morning, they're part of my problem with the child protection stuff cos Grace always hugs me, lies on me & likes being tickled and stuff & her mum is fine with me doing it when we're on the bus, but technically i'm not allowed to do it at Girls' Brigade, so what do i do? Turn round & tell Grace i'm not allowed? that's what is likely to encourage younger kids to make false allegations! And make her feel rejected, its things like this that can mentally scar a child!! And in more cases it'll be this than child abuse!! well thats what i reckon anyway. But i have to comply to the rules, at least to a sensible extent. God will sort all my problems, sometime anyway.