Well i've had a pretty crap day today. this morning charlie was snapping at me cos i'd said no to her instead of just doing as she wanted me to as i usually do. Then the guys were messing around as usual during break, 3rd and lunch. this afternoon charlie & sam spent most of it snapping at each other & at each others throats, it was doing my head in, sam was being all depressive & doing stuff which was triggering off charlie wanting to self harm, so of course she got all ratty with him & the depressed. Tom was around which was good, i gave him his birthday card & he thanked me, but then he's spent the rest of the day teasing me & stuff. he got involved with charlie & sam's argument at one point, and seemed to calm them down. but he's been calling me communist & saying i'm ugly & stuff, he was only joking about the ugly, but thing is i think i am anyway, and the communist stuff is just doing my head in cos i cant talk to him without him saying it. we did have a laugh some of it & we were flirting rather alot, gotta be careful with that. Then after school i was waiting with charlie for her bro & his friends, and with tom for nick leek, and something was said & i said that i'd never had to wait for my sister & they said that my family were uncaring thats why, which pissed me off, cos theyre not, & i text charlie later & she just had a bitch at me that its ok for me to critisize her family but not the other way round & i'm like i've never ever said that her family are uncaring cos i know they do care, alot! i didnt need the bitch so i just havent replied. Plus the fact that on the way to GB tonight i was threatened by a lad that he'd slit my throat & he had a knife. then i walked past the lads that had bullied me the other night, so i was NOT in a good mood. to then have to deal with about 15 girls going to mcdonalds, and erin & grace's parents, who were being overprotective of me AGAIN! and wanting to take me home & stuff, i got out of coming home with them by going with Jane to church & getting a lift home with Beth's mum. who i have surprising carefree convs with despite knowing that she knows whats happened between me & tom :/ ---------Edit--------- i dont know why i even bother, tom just disappeared offline after he stopped speaking to me & without saying bye, i think i've probably pissed him off. then chris came online & he doesnt even bother speaking to me, generally he's always trying to speak to me when we're both online regardless of whether i'm busy or not. i'm bored & feeling like everyone wants to stay away from me & that i just piss everyone off.