Its been a mainly good day altho it barely feels like it. I had a laugh with chris and when he attacked me i won, and he's since been complaining of scars from my nails. but its triggered pauls jumping to conclusions and him saying that i fancy chris, which i dont, and then that chris fancies me...hmm. but talking to tom later when he was trying to cheer me up, i was sat on his lap talking and hugging and i felt like kissing him and from the look in his eyes i'm pretty sure he felt the same, especially cos he kissed me on my cheek then suggested i sat next to him to talk. i dont think tho, given that we're off to uni this year & i've already got alot on my plate, that it'd be right for us to get back together, but its hard being apart too :s i'm feeling particuarly bitter towards caroline at the moment, i didnt really want to talk to her last night but did, and then she went and told becky everything even tho i'd trusted her not to, so i feel really betrayed and hurt. Men are confusing me and upsetting my emotions, and it seems i cant even trust my female friends either. i was however treated to a hot chocolate by the parents of 2 of my girls, grace was with them, and her mum said she'd been upset and when i asked grace why (she wouldnt tell her mum) she said it was cos she'd been nasty to her mummy and daddy, awww bless, so i hugged her better. wish my tears were caused by something so simple, and that hugs would heal it all, unfortunately not. "life ain't easy, but you'll be ok, you have the Big Guy upstairs on your side looking after you - don't forget it" my lifeline at the moment.