thursday was a good day, i went for a nice walk in the afternoon, through some fields, not countryside but pleasant city outskirts, and found a little craft shop. i spent the evening texting chris, it was a little frustrating at times, but it was a good and reassuring conversation & made me feel alot better towards him. And i had a brilliant time at GB, i decided that i wasnt going to let myself sit around and be misery guts, so something i dont often do, even though i was knackered, i joined in with the girls playing games, and was running around the church playing dodgeball & laughing and shouting, it was really great fun, and while you're having fun, laughing and running you dont have a chance to think or be depressed so it was really theraputic. it made me more relaxed for the rest of the evening and able to laugh at things, and be more at ease to take things sensibly when i was texting chris and not get all wound up about things, so its all good!!!!