Nottingham was ok, it wasnt as fun as with Becky before, Lisa B isn't as carefree and like Becky & Charlie, i guess thats why they're my best mates, they're the ones i can quite happily spend all day with and not get bored with them or annoyed, whereas Lisa was getting worked up about getting lost & stuff & we(me, becky, charlie) just find it more fun if you get lost, and she was on & on about happening. i couldn't have as good conversation with her as with becky and charlie & that kinda dampened the spirits in nottingham. I'm getting so fed up with myself, i'm so up & down like a yoyo, one minute i was all happy & laughing teasing becky about her boyfriend & the next i was feeling all alone cos no one loves me like that. why cant i just stay in the same mood in a day unless something drastic happens, why do i just change mood for no apparent reason??? this is really bad cos i think i'm losing faith in God, i know he exists and everything but i dont seem to be trusting him with my life like i should.