Grrr am getting really annoyed with the whole chris situation, firstly he's not talking to me, and wouldnt reply to my texts, then i found out that he'd been texting stacy and giving her all the bondage crap that he used to give me & asking to go round her house, fortunatly she's not as stupid as me & told him where to stick that idea & so he avoided her the rest of the day, lol, he's such a tosser, i'd thought he'd changed, obviously not. He told charlie that the reason he wasnt talking to me was that its complicated & he feels like shit. And he's just text me saying that he knows i'm probably getting a bit annoyed with him, judging from the evil look i gave him this morning (it wasnt intentional if i did, lol, but i quite probably did subconsciously cos i'm not very happy with him), but that its complicated and he needs to sort things out. hmm i cant be bothered to text him back, stuff him, i'm fed up of him messing me around, yet i cant forget about him or hate him cos i care about him & its just not in my nature to do that. Another thing i have, though hopefully its a bit better now, cos i told charlie that aidan's release date is next week, i only found out the exact date today, but i'd known for months that it was march not april like she'd been told, so she wasnt too happy about me not telling her & that he's coming out. He's another git thats caused us so much stress, stupid boys!# I got a big papercut earlier down the inside bit of my nail, so difficult to plaster & now type & then Honey decided she liked the taste of it & was gonna bite it, ow! She's in my bedroom cos mum was painting downstairs. Why does life suck so so so much? its a big knot of string with no way out & problems at every turn! O yeah, you wouldnt know it, but its my birthday in 3 days, i cant be arsed, i feel so down & depressed, the last thing i need is 'happiness' birthdays where i'm meant to be cheerful *sigh* its another day, another problem & another tear.