I'm going to head to bed after this entry, I'm really exhausted, and I just wanna lay in bed with Kyle. I really wish this site was more active, but I guess that it's inactivity gives me much more ability to have my diary safe. I'm just scared that they'll end up closing the site fully =S It's the only Diary site I've liked. I've been playing Phantasy Online with kyle lately, to make him happy, and to tell you, I'm actually not that unhappy about it, It's a fairly okay game, I just hate Sudden games, where monsters randomly spawn Really quickly on you in a 3D game where you could die and not even see it. They scare me, and always have. But luckily I found attacks that save my ass even if I don't have my character pointing in the correct direction. So basically, Kyle and I haven't been argueing thank god, Cause I really get scared about that, like maybe he's getting tired of me and that he's probably thinking him moving in with me was a bad Idea, and I don't want him to have that pass through his mind, so I'm attempting to be a good boyfriend, but God damn I'm just a horrible person at heart so there is no getting over that. So I've also been playing Gaia online, but have been for a few months, and I have two commissions due and it's killing me to do them, I feel that I'm not doing a good job. And I keep looking at the art on Deviantart.com and it just keeps making me even more jealous that I can't get it to be the way they have it. and UGH... whatever... I'ma go listen to this song and head to the bed, I'll write another time, I don't have the chance to while kyle's awake, I don't want him to know about my diary. ever.