So yesterday, Kady, Babs and I went to a party, and it was a pretty cool party, I knew most of the people there. some I didn't but it was fine, no one was against me everyone was friendly so yeah. This one guy named Sparky (nickname) kept hitting on me, and I thought he was cute but he has a girlfriend. He then told me that He really doesn't like her because she's cheated on him three times or so and this is the last chance he's giving her. So he was flirting with me, but wouldn't make any moves. Of course he knows I'm taking, I made that blantantly obvious, but he kept doing it anyway. and I started to kind of like him back. at the end of the night he walked with me to his car and got in and was talking to me, and he called me cute. then told me to add his myspace so he could hang out with me today, because he had to come to town anyway. So before I left i made sure I got to a computer and added him. Then Kady, Barbra and I leave, and we have a chain of events where her car kept dying and running out of gas and the battery kept disloging so that was a long ride home depressed. I finally get home and Kyle did his whole, "I HAVEN'T SEEN YOU ALL DAY" shit, where he complains and won't let me get up to use the bathroom or anything, and it really makes me feel clausterphobic when he does that shit. so I told him, "I want you to take this as an adult and please please please don't get offended.but is there a way to just hang out at someone elses house for five days" because I was sick and tired of always dealing with shit and I just wanted to fully relax for once and not have to deal with kyle and not have to deal with anything but he blew a fucking fit and started whining, so I basically said Fuck it, that he couldn't take the conversation as a fucking adult i wasn't going to try. then he talked about how we could go on a vacation from everything, so I told him it wasn't the same, because we'd have to worry about the money and shit as well as I'd still be around the main person I want a break from which wasn't getting through his head. so I just left it alone and went to bed, I went to school today, an all I could think about was meeting Sparky later today, I had myspace messaged him this morning saying to meet me in the viking center around 1 pm and shit. because afterwards my mom was taking me to get my computer fixed. as well as Depositing my student loan that I was getting today and was going to buy a laptop with it later this week. Finally one pm comes around, and then two, so I call my mother, and she tells me she's not coming today, but instead tomorrow to fix my old computer, then she told me my loan hadn't came in so i went upstairs to find out that my Student loan financers had bailed on me and I have to reapply tomorrow for me to even get the money, and I won't be getting the money till at least two weeks from now. which completely blows off my fucking chances of getting the new laptop I wanted. Barbra came by the school, and called sparky, to find out instead of coming here he had some business in Keystone. so later I went on his myspace to leave him a comment to have a girl leave him a comment saying she loved him so much. And it wasn't his girlfriend either. I clicked her, to turn out she lived in Keystone. so now I knew where he went today rather than to see me, and I feel like fucking shit because everything that was going to make this day good happened to bail on me completely. for the last two days, I feel so horrid right now, and kyle is giving me the silent treatment, he's not letting me notice, like he'll say small things to me, but he locked the door on me and was laying in bed all day listening to music. so I know he is. ------------------------- I officially finished renaming all my entries. it took a few months, but I finally motivated myself to number every entry. yay =S