Okay so I have school today. I didn't get any sleep last night and I have a SHITLOAD of make up work to do for missing so much school. I wish I was at tabathas house right now, I dunno, I feel Like I'm at home there. But I feel like I'm at home here as well. when I'm not pressured to do anything. So I cleaned my room right?.. And jeremy was all, "if you get your room cleaned then I'll give you back your computer.." and my response was, "okay!". so I sat in my room for like two hours cleaning that bitch, all I have to do now is the laundry, and then do the dishes tonight when I get done with my homework. bad news was jeremy wasn't gonna give me my computer back so easily, first he said no and I didn't know why, but I had like NOTHING to do, so I begged him for it back but didn't ask for the internet, so He gives it back and I listen to music and do whatever, I also watched my fosters home for imaginary friends on my computer =D.. lucky me I had two episodes so it didn't get as old as I thought it would be. Then I listened to music and made a plain white dress up shirt I had cool =D.. so yeah, I didn't get ANY sleep because of this and I gotta leave the house in fourty five minutes. I dunno, I have nothing else to write. I feel perfectly fine, I don't feel mad, or angry, maybe a lil tired, but I can deal with that because I had alot of sleep yesterday and all. so yeah.. I dunno, I'll update tonight or tomorrow, whatever. PS: people who know my account information to my diary are Megan, Stephanie, and Tabatha. THAT IS ALL. anyone else gets in here and I'll have to rechange my password and limit who see's once again. -Matti ------------------- Todays okay, I have a SHITLOAD of homework to do.. I'm extremely tired, I've been passing out every chance I get.. for cereal. I have to do some shit for english 2 honors and biology and I'm all "URRGGHH".. I wanna go to bed, I have one class to attend, and then drag my sorry ass home.. With all my fucking books.. Lexi and matt have dyed there hair, Lexi is now white, and matt is now a redish.. Thats good on my part cause I know th at I wont be the one who will have to change. I need to rebleach though. I want kevin here.. Like literally I want him to be really close to me and I want him to hold me and I wanna fall asleep in his arms. god what a fucking hopeless romantic I am. I really really hope he is real. I believe it cause why would someone lie that much to me.. I want to believe he's real. I do believe he's real. Nine more days.. Just nine more days and he'll be here like he promised me. Or I'll I don't even know.. I just want him here, I don't wanna think about it. Gotta go though, I'ma bout to pass out -Matti