Today feels better, I finally got kyle to talk to me. Then we had make up sex. which wasn't bad mind you. I begged him to play a video game with me before we went to sleep. I didn't want to just pass out like I normally feel like doing. I still feel fairly numb about the situation. I ended up deleting my friend request to Sparky. personally I feel it's for the better. I don't want to be in college, it really sucks. no one forces you to do your work so you fail on your own time, and I need that push to keep me going. I didn't even do my homework last night. Technically I don't ever do my homework, but last night I was going to and completely forgot about it. -------- I was overlooking my old diary entries from 2003, and I fucking hate myself from the past. I was an obnoxious, childish whiney little depressive brat. The only thing me and that person have in common is the password to this diary. I have more time in the mornings so I believe I can write more in here again. but I may end up forgetting about you and coming back months later like I always do. this site isn't even active anymore, the only thing that draws me to it is the memories, and the fact that I still have one friend who owns hers. I wish scott was more active in trying to expand it. I might do that behind his back or something.