I guess we broke up, I don't know what to think really. I mean I thought this is what I wanted but he really made me feel like shit. I don't feel guilty. but I feel like something I had is being taken away. I know i had said a lot of stupid things, but I would probably take them back right now. he doesn't trust me, I told him he didn't have to, i don't trust him either, especially after waking me up at three am to say, 'we need to talk or I'm heading back to Deland'. he went through my myspace, he checked my xtube account. everything, he was having fits I was talking to other boys. and arranging meets with them, meets that I knew would never actually be arranged, yet he won't believe me when I say, I have never cheated on him. I was going to meet up with this guy named steven, I thought he was cute yes, and he liked me back, but we weren't going to do anything, he knew I was in a relationship, we were going to go to gainesville and see a movie, hopefully wall-e because i really wanted to see it. but kyle blew up when I explained that to him, because I told him I was going with kady and barbra, because he wouldn't of been able to understand. and now look what happened, I knew he wouldn't and our relationship has plummeted. I thought we had it settled, we had talked it out and decided we could try and fix this and if it didn't work out, we'd go our separate ways. but when kyle got back to the computer, I guess jealousy over took him yet again, and he said he couldn't do this, and left the room, off to go sleep some where else in the house. I should probably find him, and lay down with him, but I don't want to end up looking like a fool. after all this is what I wanted. I will miss his company, he was the only one I had around, but it was just too much, he was ALWAYS there. and i just wanted alone time more than anything. but even now, five minutes after he left, I don't want this alone time anymore. I just don't want our relationship to end on a bad note, i want to be able to say that I still can talk to him, and that we're perfectly happy people just separated. I probably should of never starting mass adding all those friends..