okay, so the uproar of lily's "death" is over, I still have yet to see her since the rumor started. Lexi will be late to school today,cause she missed her bus. I broke up with kevin, I felt completely horrible because I care about him. Its just I Hate having the feeling that Im still alone yet I do have someone and I dont like lying to myself. so I just had to make it a literal thing. He doesnt understand he started making me feel worse about how he gave up so much for me. Acting like I dont understand. when Really I do. No one undersands me, thats the thing. Awkwardly Enough, Megan broke up with her boyfriend too. she said he was too girly for her taste, and too clingy. which I could understand. I told her to tell him, "I just.. Need a More.. Manly-Man.. And I think you do too". She started laughing. It was horrible but funny. anyway. so basically I stayed Alone all day yesterday sleeping, staying on jeremy's good side cause yeah.. I dont want him grounding me. MORE.. I cant believe I stayed home yesterday, when my fun classes are those days ugh.. I saw laurel this morning. So I know English wont be fun at all. and I wont be able to sleep, she always has somthing boring and completely task taking to do. and Im extremely tired. Lexi offered me more Adderol. but said she would cut it in half, so it wouldnt do TOO much damage to me. I'll write more later -Matti